My deconversion began with the realization that god does not keep its promises. Scripture makes some fairly concrete claims god will give you the desires of your heart, etc. I believed innocently, naively, implicitly. I grew up in church, Christian schools, as both an MK and a PK. Christian camps in summer, then I was a camp counselor . I started my college years in a Christian university. I would allow myself a certain amount of freedom to question and think for myself, but as a good Christian there was always a point at which my questions must stop. Usually a good paradox came to mind, such as how can something exist from nothing without god?